I can't believe I'm doing this!

Writing a blog...hmm, well I'm going to give it a shot. I had been reading others blog for quite awhile and thought to myself, "these people have too much stinkin time!" However, I do have a lot to say, no surprise to those of you that know me well:) So I thought I'd give this a shot. Especially right now. I'm at a place in life where my children do not need my undivided attention and they actually do allow me some privacy. Writing about the challenges of being a wife, mother, daughter, sister, daughter in law in themselves is enough, but maybe using this to try and keep my focus on my relationship with Christ. I've struggled with that for the last year. I'm not talking losing my faith, I'm saying devoting time to Him. I spend soooo much time doing everything else, that I put Jesus on the backburner. To me He's just always there, loving me regardless of if I've said "Hello" to Him, or thanked Him. I mean, he's Jesus, He knows what I'm thinking... So maybe in a small way, I can use this as some prayerful, devotional time too.

As of writing this, I'm sitting in my bed (which has been my home for just a bit over a week, since having pulled a muscle in my back, just lovely) watching this winter storm outside and I did have the news on. Last week that's all I could do, but when it came to the inauguration, I could watch very little. I tried watching it, but I found it too incredibly disturbing, so disturbing it actually gave me the chills and made me a little fearful. I for one, couldn't have been more pleased that this nation finally has an African-American as President. (I would have preferred it to have been JC Watts, but oh well) I also personally like to refer to President Obama as an "American" since that is what he is. His skin just happens to be black. But after watching it for just a bit, watching the people watch him, I found it all so incredibly unsettling. It's like he's the second coming, the Messiah. So, I had to turn it off. I did watch on Fox News, since it was the only one showing it, the speech President Bush gave once he got back to Texas. Watching him, you just knew the weight of the world had been lifted off his shoulders. This man, is not perfect, he didn't always make the right calls, but I CANNOT even fathom what would have happened to this nation if there had been anyone else in office during the time he was in office. No President has had to confront what all he had to. I watched a show this weekend where Gary Sinise went to Iraq, as he's done many times, showing what he does, what our troops have done... and he showed some of the places Saddam had built. One in particular that didn't get done fast enough and the torture and the murders of these men working for him because they weren't working fast enough. That man killed tens of thousands. At this point, I do not care if the intelligence was wrong. The fact that we went in and I pray, have helped them establish a democratic life and a freedom like they've never known, makes it all worth it. If these were bad decisions, God will judge those. I cannot imagine living in fear such as that. I could go on and on about the politics that are going on right now, but I'll save that for another day. I'm sure there will be many and trust me I do have a lot to say on the issue:) But as for now, I need to get something to eat and more coffee:) Also, going to see what this evening brings weatherwise. So far been a bit nasty with snow and ice and more to come! Only good though if you get stuck inside and can't go anywhere:)